Hola people!
So what I though for today's post is something a little bit different...
One of the best way to get to know someone is by looking at their stuff, so this is my room from A to Z!
A for Alarm clock
I love my alarm clock! It's a TARDIS and I wake up to the sound of it landing in my room! It's amazing
B for Bedside table
It's kind of stupid to say that I own one of this (well, two of them) but it's because the nearest one to the bed is my everything. I have all of my wires and charger there. And my camera and laptop (and some snacks for the night)
C for Cushions
I only have three cushions right now, because my mom took away from me the fourth a year-ish ago telling me that I don't really need four cushions to sleep. But c'mon, cushions are the best things in the world. You can cuddle with them, you can use them to build a little bed over the bed when the second one is too hot in summer (I think I'm the only one to do that), you can just put them on the floor and sit on them, use them to make a chair comfier... I think I have a point
D for Doctor Who
Across my room you can find lots of stuff related to "Doctor Who": DVDs, books, the alarm clock, posters, quotes,... I just love it soooo much!
E for Earrings
I have a wide range of different type of earrings. From piercings to one which is a blue wing
F for Flannel shirts
They are either on my bed waiting for me when at night it starts being windy and I need something to put on or either in my closet. They're so cute and comfy!!
G for Guitars
I have two guitars (actually one is mine and one is Ayra's, but still). I'm trying to learn how to play it (even if I'm extremely bad at it!). And the reason why I have two guitars is that actually my hand is too small for mine on, so I borrowed Ayra's one which is smaller!
H for Headphones
They're always with me, even at night to fall asleep, so they're either on my bedside table or plugged in my hears!
K for King size bed
I still have no clue of how I convinced my parents to let me have a king size bed but I love it and it's amazing for sleepovers!
L for Lyrics
They are write here and there in my room. Music has to always be with me, and some lyrics are too good to not be read every day
N for Notes
I always put notes for myself around my room to remind me what I have to do. They go from something like "Meeting with Ary at 3 pm" to "First rule: the Doctor lies" (if you get it, I adoreeeeeee youuuuuu)
P for Photos
I have decided to put a lot of photos on one of the sides of my closet to remind me of the good time I spent with my friends
Q for Quotes
I put quotes everywhere! They have an incredible power on me. They stimulate me, make me feel happier (or sadder)
R for Red lipstick
I love using red lipstick. It's always set on my bedside table, even if I don't wear it the most of the time (aka at school)
S for Socks
I left them everywhere in my room. Once I found one in my bedside table. I don't even know why I'm so lazy, but I just left them everywhere around my room
T for Television
Even if I basically never use it it's there. Once I used to put my USB in and listen to music from there, but I realized that I prefer use my headphone and isolate from the world, so now it's there doing nothing. I should definitely decide what to do with it...
W for Wall of stuff
It an other part of the external part of my closet dedicated to a bunch of stuff I like. There are photos, train ticket, museum ticket, travel cards, some pictures... Just a lot of stuff
Some letter are 'missing' as I don't own anything that starts with that letter, apparently. Maybe I just forgot I own that...
Okay, bye
L
Sunday, 31 May 2015
Monday, 11 May 2015
Reality and imagination: my 2 am and 11 pm thoughts
Hola people!
So, how is it going? Pretty awful right now for me.
Let me explain.
On Saturday I fell while walking and today I went to A&E to check on my right hipbone because I couldn't walk. End of the story, they haven't understood what is wrong because it's not broken and they didn't want to get me a x-ray.
But that's not the reason.
As an outcome of me being clumsy and not able to properly walk I am stuck in bed (or couch) for the next couple of days for sure.
And the awful part is not even here.
It's not because I'm bored or I can't go wherever I want (that is kind of cool, plus I have laptop, doctor who and wifi, so it'all good) but because I think, and that's not a good thing for me.
It all started this morning.
I woke up at 2 am for the pain and I wasn't able to go back to sleep and I start looking at stuff stored in my phone and laptop.
I found out a bunch of quote I wrote down while reading, listening to music and watching tv and I found out this one:
Of course I haven't wrote down where is this taken from, as I'm an idiot, but it made me think, and a lot.
That's something that I constantly do, creating the reality I want.
But the scary thing is that I started living more in that imaginary, still amazing world rather then in this. I'm constantly thinking about how my life would have gone if I would have gave a different answer, if I haven't sent that stupid message two and a half years ago, if I wouldn't choose the school I'm attending. And if I'm not, I'm either thinking about possible futures, if I drop out of school, or not going to uni after high school, or having the possibility of working in radio as a producer or if I won't achive my dream or just imagining the life I'd like to have, free from my problems and travelling or being with friends doing what I love.
But that something all of us do, right, thinking about the perfect life. It is normal, and a lot if you actually kind of hate the one you have.
My problem is that it's kind of becoming an addiction. I feel like I'm constantly there, living the live of the "what if", or the one about my possible futures, or my favorite one, the completely different one, where I'm am who I want to be. The main problem: even when I'm with my friends, I'll zone out and think about it.
Do you see why I call it an addiction?
And that's totally not ok, because I would stop anything I'm doing and think about my "other possible life" and not studying, or not going outside and then it would come the stress and the anxiety because
1) I'm not studying
2) I'm not living the life I'm creating in my mind and I don't like the one I'm living.
Ok, my mind is just a mess, not only right now, but constantly and I need to do something about it and my imagination problems.
I'm sorry for this non-sense post, but I needed to just write and let it out.
And I'm also sorry if this is full of grammatical mistakes and/or typos, but it' s 11 pm and I woke up at 2 am this morning and I don't have the force to proofread it.
Have a good week.
See you next time
L
So, how is it going? Pretty awful right now for me.
Let me explain.
On Saturday I fell while walking and today I went to A&E to check on my right hipbone because I couldn't walk. End of the story, they haven't understood what is wrong because it's not broken and they didn't want to get me a x-ray.
But that's not the reason.
As an outcome of me being clumsy and not able to properly walk I am stuck in bed (or couch) for the next couple of days for sure.
And the awful part is not even here.
It's not because I'm bored or I can't go wherever I want (that is kind of cool, plus I have laptop, doctor who and wifi, so it'all good) but because I think, and that's not a good thing for me.
It all started this morning.
I woke up at 2 am for the pain and I wasn't able to go back to sleep and I start looking at stuff stored in my phone and laptop.
I found out a bunch of quote I wrote down while reading, listening to music and watching tv and I found out this one:
"I was awake, just staring at the wall, mixing reality and my imagination together into the reality I wanted"
Of course I haven't wrote down where is this taken from, as I'm an idiot, but it made me think, and a lot.
That's something that I constantly do, creating the reality I want.
But the scary thing is that I started living more in that imaginary, still amazing world rather then in this. I'm constantly thinking about how my life would have gone if I would have gave a different answer, if I haven't sent that stupid message two and a half years ago, if I wouldn't choose the school I'm attending. And if I'm not, I'm either thinking about possible futures, if I drop out of school, or not going to uni after high school, or having the possibility of working in radio as a producer or if I won't achive my dream or just imagining the life I'd like to have, free from my problems and travelling or being with friends doing what I love.
But that something all of us do, right, thinking about the perfect life. It is normal, and a lot if you actually kind of hate the one you have.
My problem is that it's kind of becoming an addiction. I feel like I'm constantly there, living the live of the "what if", or the one about my possible futures, or my favorite one, the completely different one, where I'm am who I want to be. The main problem: even when I'm with my friends, I'll zone out and think about it.
Do you see why I call it an addiction?
And that's totally not ok, because I would stop anything I'm doing and think about my "other possible life" and not studying, or not going outside and then it would come the stress and the anxiety because
1) I'm not studying
2) I'm not living the life I'm creating in my mind and I don't like the one I'm living.
Ok, my mind is just a mess, not only right now, but constantly and I need to do something about it and my imagination problems.
I'm sorry for this non-sense post, but I needed to just write and let it out.
And I'm also sorry if this is full of grammatical mistakes and/or typos, but it' s 11 pm and I woke up at 2 am this morning and I don't have the force to proofread it.
Have a good week.
See you next time
L
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